AGRIMONY relates to the soul qualities of Assertiveness and Joining in.

I am so happy to know that I am Loved by God, that I always have Spiritual Guidance to assist me, and, that there is always something good where there are difficulties --- that every day is something to take pleasure in and share with others. I use my sensitivity and awareness of relevancy to always look for all the possibilities, find all the questions, and enjoy how there are ways in which we can all work together and enjoy what we have. I know that I am seldom the source of conflicts which others react to and when I am I seek forgiveness and resolution. For the many other times, I recognize that individuals and groups often face difficulties and disappointments, and, being unaware of the inner reasons, project their negativity on others, including me. Yet, I trust that God will guide me in the most positive direction always, keep me as safe as the environments which we humans have constructed will allow, and help me create harmony where there is disrespect. I am a Positive Agrimony person.

Abuses in the form of force, confinement, exclusion, rejection, and spurious persecution tend to be the experiences which build Agrimony energy blocks. Like a random kidnapping or a rape (sexual assault) by a stranger (most rapes are committed by known assailants), the victim experiences terror and confusion. This distress is so horrible, striking at the level of the Personal Spirit of the individual, that one fears to share it with anyone else, no matter how respected or trusted. The Reptilian Unconscious of the person will now be sensitised to any non-verbal or environmental elements which formed part of the originating experience or experiences. One has survived a spiritual death -- yet, HOW can one formulate such a non-material reality into words that are significant to others. There is an assumption, sometimes built upon social gossip, that to share such a horror is to invite ridicule, shame, and guilt.

Always on the run, the negative Agrimony person seeks to escape the inner depressive feelings through distraction and replacement. With the Ego (Personal values) and SuperEgo (Social attitudes) wishing to avoid any conscious replay of the original events, which may be from one's own life or that of an ancestor, there is a desire to maintain a sense of anemia/amnesia. Never stop, never look back, never reflect -- or the reality of an acute confusion concerning one's self in the Past will spill into the Present and Could destroy the Future. That COULD must be avoided at all costs for IF the genie rising from the magic lantern finds you GUILTY, you will be doomed to everlasting hell in life! WHY?

Many organized human societies support magical rationalized beliefs. These may extend back over thousands of years and dozens of generations. In the over-simplification of the "observer" who enters the crime scene AFTER the deeds have been done, it is often easier to place trust where social respect has been sanctioned. A prostitute is disbelieved and a police officer escapes charges of rape and brutality. A priest is believed and a sexually abused altar boy is rejected from his parish. A healer is defamed and persecuted because those many of less competence in medicine fear that his success will reveal clearly the illusion of their authority to the public. Such injustices of "objectivity" unfortunately happen too often to be isolated occurrences. EVERY highly structured society has encouraged such abuses through the sanction of human authority to the exclusion of Spiritual Guidance. Spiritual and personal truth is denied until the level of energy blocked and imprinted abuse memories result in the fall of such empires. Negative Agrimony MAKES such an outcome happen. HOW?

The spiritually abused person (who may also be emotionally and/or physically abused) reacts to actions as an extension of ONE (or a few) experience which was so shocking and confusing that the outcome is feared. With ACTION linked unconsciously to the FEARED outcome, and with the Ego (Personal desires) and SuperEgo (Social requirements) willing to RISK for the BENEFIT possible, the individual rushes into the action only to quickly withdraw and search for the next action opportunity. To stay longer would present the traumatized projection of the feared outcome happening. This becomes a self-fulfilling failure pattern. For the BENEFIT to be realized, the person MUST stay and Participate with Commitment. By leaving, the benefit is surrendered. This is NOT a conscious process. With energy blocks, it is reactive and robotic. With imprinting, it is reactive because it is easy and acceptable.

With all this failure WHY get involved in the action at all?
Without an understanding of why one was CHOSEN to be beaten, raped, confined, excluded, rejected, abducted, kidnapped, or sworn at -- the rationally educated or imprinted person is prompted to believe that THEY must have done something to DESERVE the outcome. This is further supported if the imposer holds a position of sanctioned ultimate authority in the social reality of the individual -- parent, spouse, teacher, priest, boss, mentor. This may be further encouraged if the person committing the violence tells the victim that he or she HAS done wrong, DESERVES the treatment, or, that what is being done to them is somehow otherwise sanctioned (i.e. as the will of god, the sentence of a judge, or, according to some moral principle of sacrifice).

A yet further encouragement for the victim to assume GUILT is the sanction of the abusive action of the perpetrator by the rest of a peer group, by the legal system not enacting a penalty, or, by trusted contacts telling the victim that they have no power against their abuser and must have encouraged it! ALL of these elements encourage the victim to feel GUILTY and ABANDONED. How can they atone and become accepted again? Taking action to join in signifies this desire. The inability to follow through suggests insincerity. This hypocrisy of actions presents the person to the public as a Joker, Clown, Flake, Entertainer, Loser, Hysteric --- and they may become a source of humor. With the sensitivity of the Agrimony character, this position as the humor provider may be acknowledged and consciously chosen for its illusion of acceptance --- which has always been the goal. It is an illusion as the Comic joins in from a distance. They are on the stage, NOT in the audience.

The unconscious vague self-hatred which the negative Agrimony character feels is revealed in the many destructive addictions which they acquire to try and block out by conscious distraction or by numbing out their real guilt brought into their consciousness by their REACTIVE actions which have terminated benefits they COULD have had but seemed to throw away. Sometimes, it may seem to them that the more they try, the more they fail. Distraction will keep them out of the action and out of more harm. It will also keep them from the joy of any of the benefits of a positive relationship and a spiritual awareness. Organized societies seem to present an endless array of addictive distractions and thus indicate the prevalence of this plague: tobacco, alcohol, sugar, possessions, academic and performance degrees, promotions, speed, cocaine, heroin, marijuana, pop, coffee, gangs, rock-rap-country music. It is NOT the existence of ANY of these that indicates the addiction. It is the inability to engage in these distractions without compulsion.

Recovery is often more difficult and unlikely than prevention of a negative Agrimony state. The only certain way I know of to release Agrimony energy blocks is through Balancing Therapy. Yet, by the very symptoms of insincerity, passivity, denial, and withholding -- I have had very few clients with Agrimony blocks. Why would you try to correct something you don't believe can be corrected, or should, because you DESERVE it? If something is so panic-making that you can't pause to consider it, why would you risk ANY form of assistance which might put you in touch with it. Only persons with very strong Identity factors have come to me as clients with Agrimony blocks.

Imprinted negative Agrimony patterns may be exchanged for Positive ones IF the individual takes the time to UNDERSTAND why the pattern can arise (above) and HOW the pattern works to sabotage them (see chart above). No one is responsible for the abuse someone else forces on them. WHEN they understand that the GUILT they consciously feel is Forgivable by their sincere action to stop the sabotaging sequences through Commitment --- they will have a better chance for success. Commitment means making and carrying out plans which develop self-direction and self-discipline. By concentrating on the description of the Positive Agrimony person as a potential that THEY have, like all humans, and rereading it often -- this will also bring strength through their Reptilian Structure. Here is a starter list of 10 PROCESSES which can build a capability for the Commitment needed for sincere Joining In -- from which interpersonal BENEFITS can be realized.

* = Report on Self:
Make a daily diary with at least one entry every hour for what you have been doing, from the time you arise until you go to sleep. Review briefy at day's end to remind you of some of what you have devoted time to. They don't have to be accomplishments.