PERSONAL HISTORY.

IF you are unaware of my personal history you could easily draw any of many spurious, superstitious, or other erroneous rationalizations as to what the process and the results mean. A sincere investigator, a professional detective, and a good scientist are ALWAYS interested in a history of their subject in a chronological order. These details help them place the more recent developments into relevancy and provides a good base for cross-references and correlations. A quick and simple conclusion is rarely constructive when the problem occurrence is large and chronic. If it were, there would be no problem!

In late 1945, I was born with poor health, several masked allergies, and a lot of energy blocks. I grew up on a farm where intense exposure to dust and pollen multiplied my allergies and introduced me to high doses of antihistamines. Before my teens, I survived an explosion and several instances of traumatic abuse. Long hours of work and poor health became a norm. I probably received my first dental amalgams before age 15. Most of my molars had large fillings by age 25. While health was always an interest, most of my personal health awareness was suppressed beneath cultural ignorance and socially encouraged self-denial. Men were not supposed to be self-aware.

In 1967, I married, quit a job I considered unethical (banking), and continued private training into the then newly forming career of computers. By 1975, I had risen to the top of my career and was half way to financial independence. I was building my own house. I was considering self-employment in a new field for me, sales. That year, I had a series of traumatic experiences which only much later were explained. A bungled hospital test severely traumatized me further into a nervous breakdown. I recovered quickly from this mental confusion before several months had passed.

My Basic Personality provides me with capabilities and inclinations to cope with change and strengths towards learning: curiosity, independence, innovation, intellectualization. Other people, like yourself, are gifted with a different mix of "natural" capabilities which enable you to succeed with whatever your mission or purpose in life is, should you accept it. Spiritual guidance would benefit most other people by providing them with fewer and more easy challenges. That could enable them to focus on some other form of success. It might not include analyzing, defining, and finding solutions and then sharing those by broadcasting them to others. My Ego, like most, hates the constant challenge; my Basic Personality enables me to cope, fortunately.

In the mid-1970s, I had also been recently badly injured on the job, recovered to sustain a severe whiplash and coma, then was laid off from a major company and an intended life-long career. I was increasingly experiencing marital difficulties, and was facing total and lengthy retraining --- at my own expense, into another new industry. Health recovery was slow and uncertain with "experts" telling me I would NOT recover from back and neck injuries. I bet you are happy this is not your experience.

The 1980s began with my first self-employment: a research company conducting sociological and marketing studies. A university degree and self-development courses added new awareness and new coping skills. I fully recovered from my earlier injuries. Toxic chemical exposure (phenol) created new problems. Two marriages later, a new job and occupation loomed positive, again. Success brought long hours, low pay while the business was getting established, and hypersensitivities. "Experts" told me no one recovered from such a chronic illness. As always, dentistry was an afterthought with amalgams being replaced as they broke, resulted in pain, or spawned new cavities.

The early 1990s found me totally recovered from hypersensitivities and in the best health of my life. I was very optimistic and looking forward to a "new" life. Instead of living for the future, I was living for the present and planning for the future ... as in living a happier, more contented life than I had to the then present ... up to age 100. My savings were depleted through health recovery, career retraining, divorce, and low income.

Career and business opportunities were consistently optimistic, challenging, and encouraging. Non-performance by employers, sudden market reversals, multiple embezzlement of a large earned income, a relationship collapse, a new fiance, and colon cancer left me in debt, and a little challenged. Planned dental work estimated at $8-10,000. was cancelled overnight in late 1992. Old amalgams well overdue for replacement, tooth cleaning, and some potential replacements with implants for long-term low maintenance dentistry were financially out of the question for several years.

2. Into an Abyss