The Short Version.
Imprinting is described commonly in psychology texts as behavior learned by following the example of another living entity, usually another person or group of persons. Imprinting is NOT learning that is acquired through conscious involvement. It involves neither choice (rational) nor trauma (energy blocks).

One's Reptilian Structure builds, maintains, and reacts according to patterns of behavior which have been associated with experiences. When the pattern is associated with a traumatic experience, we build an energy block. When the pattern is associated with consciously repetitive enactment, we call it rote learning ... a basis of our educational system. When the pattern is associated with experiences which we repeat by virtue of our presence and by exposure, we may be imprinted by another participant, or, by ourselves.

Spurious associations will be made, in some cases, by our Reptilian Structure in that they have been coincidental yet bear no rational cause-effect or intentional connection. When we experience long-term repetitions of similar experiences, we may unconsciously build an association which results in our unconsciously, or semi-consciously, expecting this pattern to repeat at the next opportunity. This form of pattern effectively sabotages our freedom of choice. It decides our form of participation in reality. It patterns our future.

Repetitive exposure to personal chronic illness incidents, even though we have been successful in their resolution, may, when associated with other self-imprinted patterns --- mandate that we will never recover because the NORMAL (usual) state of our health is illness. The supporting accessory imprinted patterns may contribute to this by maintaining, extending, and intensifying one's level of ILLNESS.

Recovery is possible IF we can become consciously aware of this set of patterns, become compassionate and empathic to our Reptilian Structure, and encourage our Identity expressions to work together to acknowledge this as PAST and IRRELEVANT and consciously build a FUTURE based upon RELEVANT possibilities. Imposing over-optimistic and idealistic expectations on a depressing self-imprinting pattern set of which we have no awareness will fail and only encourage increased despair within oneself and increased abandonment from those too proud to understand the reality. Help yourself and others. Know the possibilities.

Death as an Expectation!
The pattern which begins a set of linked patterns may not take its position relative to the time during which it was experienced. The first operational pattern in this set was actually the LAST pattern of experiences to be associated into an assumed outcome. Due to the sequence of events, a conscious and practical awareness of the POSSIBILITY of a fatalistic direction could not be avoided. Also, on a conscious basis, and supported by even more countering experience was the REALITY of repetitive survival from true physical factors, often against great odds.

During the 8-1/2 year period of 1995-2004, I experienced almost annual incidents of acute illnesses. In some cases, the developmental period leading to the "outbreak" varied from a few months to decades. Some were encouraged by the long-term presence of a large number of energy blocks. Others were the result of incompetent earlier medical care. Still others developed from the sanctioned cultural exposure to poisons. The occurrence of some of the illnesses encouraged the development of energy blocks while other incidents provided an opportunity to learn many coping skills and develop effective means for releasing energy blocks.

The pattern as associated by my Reptilian Structure included these:

     Dec 1994 - Feb 1995 = colon cancer;
     Jan 1996 - Feb 1996 = acute virus infection;
     May 1996 - Jul 1996 = acute intestinal parasites;
     Feb 1997 - May 1997 = acute mercury poisoning (1);
     Oct 1998 - Dec 1998 = testicular cancer;
     Apr 1999 - Sep 1999 = acute mercury poisoning (2);
     Aug 2000 - Dec 2000 = severe radiation exposure;
     May 2002 - Aug 2002 = acute mutated fungus;
     Sep 2002 - Nov 2002 = severe whiplash injury (3);
     Dec 2002 - Jan 2002 = acute adrenal exhaustion;
     May 2003 - Jul 2003 = acute fungal-virus-bacteria;
     Nov 2003 - Apr 2004 = acute mercury poisoning (3);
     Jan 2004 - Jul 2004 = fungus-virus-bacteria mutation.

I had experienced a number of earlier physical traumas over the previous decades yet their frequency was never as often nor as closely spaced. While significant in influence, they were insignificant to a pattern formation. My Reptilian Structure, in May 2004, took a position of association that it no longer expected me to ever fully recover my health. It would do its part, yet with physical depression from slow and low effectiveness of organs through mercury destructiveness and growing parasitic influence --- there was little opportunity for regeneration and recovery.

Rejection as apparent.
What was to become the second pattern in the eventual pattern set was a continual experience of ostracism, rejection and lack of sensual acceptance during an early era of my life. From the age of 8 until 21 (1953-1967), I experienced the worst of social gossip, self-hate, and distorted relationships.

Growing up in an emotionally unexpressive family on a farm and following the trauma of almost losing my sight in an explosion, I was accused of committing horrid acts along with several others. In a culture devoid of assertiveness and distrustful of children, none of us were asked for the truth. I never fully understood the true meaning of the accusations and in my fundamental religious commitment and childish understanding -- I believed that I had committed the social crime as stated. Defence was impossible. Penalty was internally projected to be as severe as the socially projected crime. I attempted suicide as a demand for forgiveness and when I failed to complete it I hated myself as a coward.

Largely, I remained shy, over-sensitive, and friendless throughout my pre-teens and teens. Any closeness of friendship to the opposite gender was quickly destroyed by the vengeful and considerate sharing of the dreaded gossip to them by peers. A few falsely revered me for my supposed exploits. Many shunned and ridiculed me in disgust. Self-hatred grew for years until I discovered in an encyclopedic book that it would have been impossible for me to have committed the crime accused of and that I and the others were clearly innocent. Self-hatred now burst out into concealed social hatred. I educated myself in all things violent and hateful ... guns, silencers, explosives, killing. What I previously abhorred, I now reveled in.

With a Personal Spirit and Basic Personality holding strengths in justice, spirituality, and sexuality (helping others) ... my Identity perspectives rebelled against each other. With a spirit wishing to be loved and to help others and an Ego lusting to destroy the nearby village of gossips with explosives and violence, I had a severe problem. Another attempted suicide was foiled by an accident and in the trauma of the experience I had a Walk-in spirit. All of my hatred disappeared and my life experience to date became no more to my consciousness than the value of a movie ... known but not associated to. I became more positive, yet, the influence of the negative gossip continued to weigh down on my experiences.

At the age of 18, I worked the summer for a paving company and lived at a work camp during the week. Housed in a bunk trailer, I was suitably shocked by the swearing and smoking. Horror developed when one of the workers sexually abused through threats another worker in the trailer. He threatened me also but in terror and aggressiveness, I refused to participate at any cost. He returned the next day with a friend and they attempted to threaten me into sexual submission once more. Again I rebuffed them, in terror. Too shy to report the incident and too afraid to remain, I took my things and dug a hole in the sand on the top of a large hill of aggregate and slept there. They searched for me, in anger. After a later physical conflict in the middle of the night between myself with two other like-minded young men, and, a group of 4 drunks, angry at our distancing ourselves from them ... I left the camp for good.

At the age of 19, I left home to work and teach in a remote mining community. Housed and working with numerous laborers in an industrial setting, I became exposed to realities of life that shocked my religious idealism: nervous breakdowns; inconsiderate immaturity and incompetence in supervisors; lust induced homosexuality in the absence of wives; illegal drug use; theft from one's room; victimization of nearby native women; prostitution; and, a committed and loving intimate relationship of a close, and seemingly religious friend, with a single and older woman with two children by her earlier spouse. These traumatized me into a third suicide attempt. I survived with the growth of acknowledging reality versus theory and idealism, and, gaining compassion and understanding for others, less fortunate.

I returned home with a renewed interest and confidence in associating with the opposite gender and a more realistic sensitivity and awareness to sharing with them. Honesty, openness, empathy, and a concern for others were obvious factors. Soon, I made friends with a young woman from a foreign culture. Within a year we were married. I was accepted and loved, as I accepted and loved her. I entered my first formal longer-term job working as a branch manager trainee for a major bank. I had broken the negative lifestyle of ostracism and threat of rejection. I was accepted, respected, and appreciated!

My Reptilian Structure would later rebuild this association of recurrent and continual threat of rejection into a pattern of totally repressed and unconscious anger. With my intensity and over-sensitivity prompted by a large number of energy blocks, my pelvic chakra energy center would induce periodic subluxations of the lower spine over the years to come. The resulting twist to my hips meant one leg would be slightly longer than the other and that the nerves controlling a sexual erection would produce impotence. This became a reverse indicator or rejection in my unconscious. It would need the third set of associations to make that leap.

Heartache revisited.
After 3 years of marriage, I began to sense rejection.
My wife seemed to be more and more sexually distant from me. In the cultural role of the male I was raised with, the male had no sensual appreciation apart from sexuality. I had never seen my parents hold hands, hug, or kiss each other. Seldom had they extended those sensual gestures to me. Starved of sensual experience as a premature birth, I would never feel this need satisfied until much later in life, freed of energy blocks, having built many positive coping skills, and, having gained accurate access to Spiritual Guidance. These took decades to realize and more heartaches followed, yet none of these approached the duration of my first marriage and included such a wide span of inputs. Energy blocks had been built to many of the singular devestating and intense experiences. Reptilian Structure builds imprinting according to duration and repetition, not intensity of the experience.

Unknown in the common Canadian culture of the 1960s and 1970s, taking birth control pills for longer than 3 years would later become known as inducing a lower libido in many women. All I knew and experienced was that my wife seemed to become less and less interested in sexual expression. I attempted to remedy this by introducing variety and searching the then newly introduced appreciation of sexual positions and techniques engaged in by other cultures and call-girls. Almost, every year for the last 8 years of our 12 year marriage (1970-1978), we had an argument about what I could not put into words. What was WRONG that she no longer loved me as much as in the beginning. She never understood my concern.

In reality, I was becoming imposing and technical in my sexual expression and my wife must have felt that I was becoming obsessed. I WAS obsessed with making my marriage work, yet the harder I tried, the more I treated her as an object and not as a person. You cannot MAKE someone else happy. You can only share happiness with them. I was becoming increasingly unhappy and frustrated in all areas of my life.

I had left my banking position out of a frustration of ethics, early in my marriage.
My career mentor, the bank manager was a drunk who was rarely in the branch. In the accounting section, three of us searched through the records of the branch for a whole weekend to find a discrepancy of 3 cents! The assistant manager became drunk and made a pass at one of the tellers during a staff-only party. The lending manager had a nervous breakdown at work under the strain of having to foreclose on people who had become poor through health difficulties and having to refuse other sincere applicants because of restrictions in the bank policies. Sales contests were held in which staff were expected to sell banking services to everyone and were judged on numbers of sales only. There was an injustice in having to encourage a poor person with one account with a balance of less than $100 to open a second account just so the branch could boast of how many accounts they had.

I had to find a job with some dignity in it!
I went to night school to learn computer programming. An early private course in the industry, jobs did not materialize as fast as graduates and I ended up working for a trust company as a Savings Manager. I started another night school course, this time, the first private course offered in Canada in computer technology. I completed the course in day classes, working part of the time in the post office and part of the time picking and filling orders in a department store warehouse.

Near the top of the class again, I accepted a job in a major multinational mini-computer company.
During the next six years, I felt repeatedly that I was being made to twist my ethics of excellent service to my customers. At the same time, I allowed clients, with my lack of assertiveness and desire to be accepted, victimize me at the expense of family time and commitments. I put in my resignation 3 times, yet was persuaded to remain in return for many of my requests for better customer service being agreed to.

The bottom began to fall out of my world when I suffered an on-the-job lower back injury, followed by a severe car accident. Medical treatment for the back injury was once a week in my location and largely ineffective as the adjustment failed shortly after leaving the therapist's office. With poor medical leave and benefits at the time and a severe commitment to my customers, I spent most of my days in pain. After 6 months, I had largely recovered from this injury when I was hit almost head on by a driver on drugs while returning home after a weekend visiting my parents. My wife and dog were unhurt but the nearly new car was a writeoff and I was clearly in another world.

After 3 days in a coma, which the intensive care staff did not expect me to recover from, I awakened with no memory back to 8 hours before the accident. Ten days later, I had a severe whiplash injury present. No therapy worked effectively or for any length of time. At the same time, the company I had worked for during much of my marriage, discovered a serious and old flaw in their accounting which now threatened their bankruptcy. I was one of the 85% of staff laid off. With the perfectionist energy blocks I held at the time, there was no other better industry employer. I saw only retraining as an option.

Cultural norms and realities of Canada in the late 1970s slowly and certainly contributed to a sense of abandonment that raised these experiences of heartache to the extreme. I separated from my wife, took a course in divorce procedure, and did all of the legal paperwork myself to save costs. With my marital separation, I religiously faced the prospect of the rest of my life without physical intimacy or sharing. Most of those who were my relatives and whom I had considered friends shyed away from me rather than being supportive or empathic.

In a mental world in which I expected both my wife and I to continue to be accepted for who we were as individuals, I was confused by the abandonment that arose. My wife and I remained good friends until her new boyfriend demanded that she break off any further communication with myself and my mother. He, like many others, could only understand a divorce as a separation of two people who HATED each other. We never hated each other. I simply did not understand her or myself.

My job layoff from the computer industry was without any termination settlement as such considerations were unheard of at the time. My option to change industries and retrain into hopefully secure long-term employment was largely dependent upon my savings as unemployment assistance for such proactive activities of the time was minimal. I tried working full-time at a similar job only to find that my auto accident injury symptoms were reactivated and became increasingly chronic.

I took a job as a night manager at a large motel-restaurant complex.
The former manager had been incompetent and had not managed the receipts or books for many months. In addition to my regular duties, I was given the responsibility to somehow make sense of this mess and fix it. It was impossible without assistance. After several months, the motel was bought out and the new owner brought in his own staff to replace many of the current staff. I was held responsible for the mess I had inherited, and, let go with little notice or termination pay. The only solution increasingly pointed to retraining and obtaining a university degree which carried the then accepted myth of permanent employment.

Health support quickly became a measure of personal finances as my previous employer's health insurance ended before my layoff and government health insurance did not apply to chronic illness situations. The previous idealism that good people will be assisted by a compassionate government slid away as bureaucracy and political involvement at the minimum made it clear that any progress toward financial balance would depend only on me. All institutions made it clear that they wanted to see the last of me and that they were willing to do the least to assist my recovery to the position of an independent and tax contributing citizen.

A determination to obtain university accreditation, advised by several career assessment findings, was also dependent upon savings as educational grants and loans were only available to penniless applicants with penniless parents. I could have fallen into lifelong chronic illness, poverty and government social support, or, a life of crime, but I repeatedly refused either.

The legal industry of the time proved shocking to me when I discovered, against all of my cultural imprinting, that justice goes to who can afford the most expensive lawyer. To preserve my wife from a nervous breakdown, feared because of the unrestrained and unprepared for abusive cross-examination of her, I settled out of court the case against the driver who had hit us and wrote off my car. This followed more than 3 years of prepaid legal representation. My lawyer apologized to me AFTER the settlement, when he saw the reality of the impact of my injuries on my health, marriage, finances and employability -- for having disbelieved my integrity.

A young lawyer friend explained that in the legal industry there is a code of ethics which plays out as less powerful lawyers NEVER attack more powerful ones for they will meet again in another courtroom. The less powerful, less known, less expensive lawyer may have a certain case built on strong evidence ... as was my case ... but he will not risk the vengeance of a shamed proud stronger lawyer in a future battle. This reality smashed the idealism of law and justice which I had held until then.

The end of this 8-year trend of disaster found my social, financial, intimate, religious, career, and health worlds in shreds. Heartache followed heartache as each area of my life that I provided commitment to fell short of a return equal to that of my participation. Indeed, it seemed that those who I provided commitment to eventually lost their commitment to me. On an unconscious level, it must have begun to play out as others having an interest in me only so long as they could manipulate, deceive, and benefit from me. Too often, I expected too much of myself and of others. Trying to be perfect and live a perfect life in an imperfect world is a hell which inevitably will lead to chronic illness.

I would rebuild all of these but Reptilian Structure never forgets anything.
There would be many successes and joys in the coming decade, yet, unless I could rebuild and retain a new level of materialistic balance, Reptilian Structure would eventually recall this long duration of construction and collapse. With the great amount of positives that would be built after this period, Reptilian Structure would require other long duration patterns of experience to link with this to build a potentially more powerful and devastating pattern than any of these three. It would do this when the stresses on it became too many for too long.

Breaking the spell.
The spell of potentially never recovering from a chronic illness experience and of death developed when my Reptilian Structure associated the 3 patterns of imprinting above into an expectation of fate. As long as we have and exercise CHOICE, we have the power to change the present and alter the future. When our Reptilian Structure becomes exhausted from our efforts and choices not resulting in longer-term benefits, we will face a new and substantial problem: apathy.

For 8-1/2 years I had repeatedly faced death in order to pursue my Mission and had never considered turning away from what I had been Spiritually Guided to do. There had, for most of that time, been a confidence that eventually enough challenges would be met and a more secure lifestyle would emerge. Reptilian was confident that I would never surrender my spiritual focus and that this would mean more of the same challenges. I continued not to have any significant financial or social support which would allay the constant reality of anxiety over an ability to maintain my health and complete and publish the Health-4-All Package, short of death and the financial benefits of my life insurance. Over the previous 18 months, I had become totally dependent financially on those I assisted. Many people who work for others are often in this position yet not to the extent that there are no monies left over for their personal use. With a Basic Personality strength of Independence, this weighed increasingly on my unconscious.

In a reverse imprint pattern association, Reptilian Structure redrew the earlier 12-1/2 year period of ostracism, rejection, and sensual desertion. The death fate was more assured through my contribution of impotence. The materialistic reality of my lack of social and financial support partly contributed to the difficulty in my full health recovery due to minimal financial resources, a condition increasingly being faced by more and more North Americans. This PHYSICAL anxiety continually resulted in painless spine subluxations which minimized my libido and induced physical impotence. On a Reptilian Structure level, this threatened the continuance of ANY intimate and emotional involvement regardless of however perfect it might be.

The prospect of another huge heartbreak arising from the destruction of a current and hugely positive intimate commitment and relationship resulted in Reptilian Structure associating the PRESENT with the PAST 8-year trend of marital and social emotional breakdown. As had happened before, the physical influence of this was to restrict the activity of my illeocecal valve. Unable to release the contents of my small intestine into my colon, toxins could not be excreted. Detoxing increased the concentration of toxins. This resulted in continuing symptoms of health distress (fatigue) and required large amounts of supplements. All of this resulted in considerable strain on an already weakened heart, which had sustained 3 heart attacks in my mid-thirties and considerable damage from mercury and parasites since.

Unless this newly acquired pattern of imprinted associations was broken, the toxicity which my own body now held onto WOULD kill me, regardless of the accuracy and efforts to detoxify and rebuild my health.

Awareness was the first step in changing this destructive pattern that even though I followed my Spiritual Guidance with imperative according to supplement requirements, activities, involvements, and therapies -- something was wrong because a constant improvement towards full health now was absent. Staying in limbo was NOT a constructive alternative. Without improvement, I would die!

The second step was to find the pattern that Reptilian Structure was acting on.
It was NOT energy block associated. It was not associated to the chronic influence of poisons because these had been found and finally excreted. It COULD be associated with the remaining fungus-virus-bacterial (FUIRERIA) combinations except that these were now well understood and had largely been addressed.

I was Spiritually Guided to visit a unique therapist who combined Touch-for-Health techniques, massage, televisual, and highly accurate intuitive association. Together we revealed the 3 imprinted patterns as the major contributors to my current health challenge. I had to be ready: open, reverent, humble, in a state of no emotion. The therapist also had to be able to assume a similar state.

The third step was for me to piece together the 3 imprinted patterns with Spiritual Guidance and define them more clearly. A conscious awareness of their meaning to my Reptilian Structure added to an awareness of how Reptilian Structure functioned and enabled me to build the reality into an understandable entity. It was imperative to understand here that no degree of conscious rationalization or desire to change this pattern will influence Reptilian Structure in a constructive manner.

The fourth step was to repeatedly influence Reptilian Structure by reviewing the pattern consciously 4 times a day and reframing it consciously to show its irrelevancy. In my experience, I had become aware of and learned a considerable number of positive coping skills during the interim period of 1979 to 1995 between imprinted patterns 3 and 1.

The fifth step was to define in detail the imprinted patterns involved, as has been done above, so that Reptilian Structure would have all, or most, of the focal points of the experiences which contributed to the imprinting. With this knowledge available on a conscious basis, Reptilian Structure would have to focus on the details. At this point, a recognition of the pattern and a repositioning of the incidents into the Past and out of the Future could lead to a disintegration of the more recent association of the 3 Past patterns into a Future reality.

This example of a composite of strongly imprinted patterns into a future expectation provide you with an awareness of the complexity and potential extensiveness of such a pattern. It demonstrates how the physical Reptilian Structure brain of an individual can sabotage its own existence. It enables you to understand why perhaps as many as 1% of humanity may eventually build such an aging "death wish" which acts completely beyond their conscious awareness and control. You also have a template of what you might be best to do if you discover that you, or a friend, have a similar pattern.

YOUR pattern may reach the same conclusion in a different manner but it will share certain common principles:

1. The underlying patterns will all be imprinted associations;

2. The underlying patterns will NOT be assembled in chronological order;

3. To influence imprinted patterns you must become consciously aware of them;

4. To constructively change Reptilian Structure you must respect it;

5. Ignoring the PAST makes a Predictable FUTURE;

6. Understanding the PAST enables change in the PRESENT;

7. Change in the PRESENT, changes the FUTURE;

8. Constructive CHANGE IS POSSIBLE.