WHEN I FIRST BEGAN accessing my Higher Self for guidance, in 1987, I had over 150 Energy Blocks and over 30 hypersensitivities. My knowledge of balancing was rudimentary. My capital resources were non-accessible and so were nil. I was living and working at a distance from any balancing therapist I knew of. I had no friends, relatives or associates who were familiar with balancing or who were working on releasing their own energy blocks.

Some of my hypersensitivity symptoms had become life threatening in severity. I had to try and work through the process myself, or die. The near potential for death can be a strong motivator for those with a strong Personal Spirit and either a strong Ego or SuperEgo. Others become depressed, confused, and inactive.

JUST HOW DIFFICULT CAN CONTACT BE ?
I am sure there are others who are as health compromised and Ego-driven as I was then. This may provide hope, empathy and motivation for them. Initially, I was fortunate to know how I could test for guidance, the basics of what I needed to test for, and, the possibility that the guidance could be interfered with. Every time I asked for guidance, I had to immediately test for whether the guidance came direct from my Higher Self, or not. Every question had to asked, confirmed, re-asked, re-confirmed.

PERSISTENCE was important, and sometimes tiring.
Sometimes, I would have to ask and test for an answer to a question as many as 40 times before I could be sure that the guidance received was untainted. I intuitively knew the importance of doing so. I needed REAL spiritual guidance. I did not know then what caused the interference in the communication.

I thought it was simply a matter of poor skill.
With enough practice and by in some way improving my technique, perhaps my success would improve. This was partly true. Don't give up in confusion, weakness, or despair. I did not. My efforts and spiritual guidance saved my life and has allowed me to assist many others to improve theirs.

THIS IS A REAL WORST CASE EXAMPLE:
In a period of 10 days, I received the guidance I required to release 42 Energy Blocks by using Bach Flower Remedies. ALL of my life threatening hypersensitivity symptoms decreased in intensity. 60% of my hypersensitivity symptoms dissolved away permanently. Access to my Higher Self became more reliable and the confirming repetitions required for clarity diminished, on average, from 35 attempts to 10.

Part of the change came from the release of the Blocks ... which robotize one's behavior and responses. Another part of the strength equation came from the achievements which my Ego had witnessed in my health improvement. My EGO was aware that it had been powerless to improve my health. Had it been otherwise, my health would never have reached such a collapse.

YOU CAN AVOID SUCH A CHALLENGE.
This site and these pages provide you with information about what balancing and energy blocks are and how to use a Balancing System efficiently and effectively. I did not have that. You are encouraged to develop an Identity TEAM approach and you have the resources to do that.

WHO CAN HELP YOU ?
It is always a surprise to me that friends, relatives, associates, and strangers --- frequently choose to turn away and not assist a chronically ill person to get better UNLESS they fully understand and believe in the processes being attempted by the unwell person. Since the 1970s, increasing paranoia about cults, spurred by the dollar craved media --- have encouraged greater conservativism (SuperEgo strengthening). Many people do not want to help because they are afraid that anything not supported by the status quo may endanger you. As a person who was deathly ill, IF conventional medicine has no answer for you except "terminal", trying something that may work is better than just waiting to die.

SOME PEOPLE WANT YOU TO STAY ILL.
This was a hard one for me to accept, but I have seen it a number of times. Sometimes relationships form or enter a pattern while you are sick. The pattern becomes routine and a form of co-dependency develops between you, the sick person, and another, the caring person. If the caring person originally had low self-esteem, your being sick strengthens their EGO by making them feel important and needed.

IF YOU GET WELL, some person(s) will perhaps no longer be needed and important. The threat of returning to low self esteem, often brought on by abuses experienced much earlier, is like asking those abuses to be relived. So, persons you hope would help you may start hiding your medications, discouraging you from continuing your efforts, find fault with the therapist, threaten to leave, or begin to destroy letters, instructions, and sources of articles that could help you. Ultimately, YOU always are best to take responsibility for your own improvement.

PERSONS WHO ARE IMPORTANT TO YOU can equally be a great detriment, or, a great benefit. If they can be the latter, remember that the larger community, and the "professionals" who "know" you cannot be helped ... will often seek to discourage and abuse them. Here is one way you can help them help you. If a friend or associate is aware of the content of this site and has begun to release their own energy blocks, they may also be effective in doing confirming testing for you.

A WELL-DISCIPLINED INTIMATE COMPANION may provide you with the most accessible source of confirmation. To do so, reliably, they will have had to release all of their Energy Blocks, become familiar with the content of this site, and somewhat developed their skills of Assertiveness and reaching a state of No-Emotion. An ability to feel Reverence also helps. You can find descriptions of these elsewhere on the site by using the SEARCH function on the CONTACT page. You now have many choices.

EGO-BETRAYING PHRASES in our speech may be detected by others before we learn to be aware of them. If we remark that our guidance and our actions from that guidance have placed us in a position of less material anxiety --- "At least I won't have to worry about the bills ...," we are admitting that such anxiety is of great concern to us --- we are not coping well. If we appreciate the spiritual guidance which we are receiving, we know the benefits we are receiving. Don't blame the spiritual world for what you and society do not provide in the physical world. Doing so gives you a losing attitude.

SOCIAL POPULARITY and respectability, political acceptance and power, and, personal pride and superiority --- are also not of the spiritual realm. The institutional and educational structures of the culture you are part of decide those ... and you have helped to maintain those perceptions in the past. If you are now rejected, it may be your opportunity to encourage change to a more compassionate and less materially obsessive society. It may also be your opportunity to reject standards and practices which marginalize others who are less EGO driven.

A PERSON WITH A DISCIPLINED EGO knows that any successes arising out of Higher Self guidance are incidental and by the grace of God and for one's mission. They will get what is needed to fulfil their mission ... which is NOT usually as much as the lazy EGO would like. Knowing and believing ... and expressing are made frustrating because our culture makes it very clear, continually, that it does not want to hear alternatives that threaten its authority and intolerance. Still, it strengthens our Personal Spirit in its identity management role to do our best in this acknowledgement. Every time the truth is made available, others have the opportunity to reject abuse and injustice.

Rules, Expectations, Assumptions.

IF YOU KNOW AND UNDERSTAND the responsibilities of your Ego, you will also be able to acknowledge its concerns and motivations. I sometimes have clients who express a wish that they would like to "kill" their Ego because it interferes so much with their Block releasing, remaining balanced, or accessing their Higher Self. Remember that force usually empowers the adversary.

FIGHTING AGAINST Block-induced behaviors only makes them stronger.
Any addict knows this. Denying one's Ego only encourages it to more powerfully present itself. Self-Management more positively acknowledges and uses known abilities when such are needed and relevant for a constructive solution. Would it be constructive to advise everyone to ask brain surgeons how to bake a cake? No more than to ask one's Higher Self to perform the functions for which the Ego, SuperEgo, Unconscious, Basic Personality, or Personal Spirit are capable of and responsible for.

CAPABILITIES and TENDENCIES of our Ego.

1. Impulsiveness:
   short-term participation with high emotional involvement;

2. Decision reactivity:
   actions are only Fight, Flight, or Fright to a perceived threat;

3. Control:
   always wants acknowledgement, recognition, acceptance, authority;

4. Identity
   is tied to material worth: territory, possessions, status, affiliation;

5. Sexual opportunities:
   are experienced as exciting, fun, energizing, co-dependent, sensual;

6. Disappointments:
   are perceived as the responsibility and creation of others (blame);

7. Simplicity rules:
   right or wrong, good or bad, with me or against me
   (crude, short-term, immediate, spontaneous, judgemental).